It’s been mind blowing to me during the healing and growing process (more than half a decade) learning about just how bad it was with him.

I had no idea when I was in it because I wanted to believe him that what was really happening was not as bad as it honestly was.

It took attorneys, the county courts, counselors and doctors (even his included), and advocates and even our family pastor showing/explaining to me — after I finally had the courage to talk about it — that it was textbook abuse from him in so many different forms.

In my heart I also knew something was terrifyingly wrong but it’s because I was so enmeshed with him and isolated by him. I wouldn’t wish what I had to go through on anybody ever.