My abuse exhusband admitted he was in a constant state of fear of me outting him of his abusiveness that even on our wedding day, he didn’t think I would actually marry him. Within the year after we actually were married, it was almost daily that more things came out that showed he was even worse than what I had even knew of him. He knew himself very well and the fact that he was so certain that I might never marry him should have been a major clue that I shouldn’t have done it.