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I’m writing this now in the hopes that doing so will help me to actually sleep tonight. I’m pretty sure I’m in shock right now and I will feel the gut twisting pain of it all soon enough. I also feel super dumb even writing this as much as admitting that I’m going to feel as I likely will. This is because the person I was calling my boyfriend just accidentally sent me a screenshot of tinder messaging from just a few hours ago with the obvious intent of “maybe” texting and meeting.
Honestly? I feel so strangely numb right now and also not surprised.
If anything, I’m really confused and disappointed because it’s not like it we haven’t been completely upfront about our intentions, how we feel about each other, etc. etc. etc. etc.
We’ve had the conversations of not dating others and he was actually the one to initiate them first and ask me to please consider making things exclusive with just him. I happily agreed to do it and not because I wanted to be with just anybody.
The thing is… I’m no fool and I understand that sh!t happens in relationships. I was never expecting or even wanting a fairytale with anybody.
I get that even in what might seem to be the most solid and loving relationships, there is also infidelity that takes on all different forms and it’s not just about involving another person. There was a time (in…
